CRAZY BRIGHT LIGHT
I’m An-na and I’m rooting for you to SHINE! As I deeply want for myself. Crazy bright light is a place of inspiration, upliftment and encouragement to be your true unapologetic self.
Mastering being my full true self has become my greatest passion and sharing it with you is my pleasure.
I want you to know the deep joy and sense of freedom and empowerment that comes with being and living authentically and unapologetically.
Do you have this great grand desire to be more wildly and freely yourself? To bravely live the life of your dreams? To just relax and feel deep joy? To deeply love and be loved?
Then Crazy bright light is the place for you.
I explore, study, teach and share stories about soulshine. Soulshine stands for fully embracing the power of being your true self. It’s to shine unapologetically. To be and live true. To light up your soul and brighten the world in doing so. It’s the greatest gift to yourself and the world.
Soulshine is your innate natural wholeness. It’s remembering and reconnecting with who you really are. Not be who the world wants you to be.
Feel deep joy, love and fulfillment. Smile about nothing. Have fun with who you are. Be free to create the life of your dreams. Have the courage to be with life, even if it’s uncomfortable. Life will feel vibrant and you will feel so alive. You will live in your power. Know your worth. Flow with life. Become an unstoppable force of nature. That is who you really are.
My soulshine journey
I am a soulshine person, not because nothing happened to me, but because a lot has happened to me. I’ve been depressed for years in my young teenage life. Torn between who I really was and who people wanted me to be.
I’ve been severely sick with Lyme, during all of my twenties, right up until I hit 30. I could hardly sit up or walk for most of that time, was exhausted, in pain every day and was isolated for the majority of that time. Basically in quarantine for a decade. And in that time, the woman who raised me so lovingly, my grandmother, my first ever soulmate, passed away. I have been very intimate with pain.
Who am I?
Who is left when I lose everything that I thought made me me? My job, my dreams, my ability to just sit and walk, to think and concentrate, I could barely read or watch a movie. Who am I?, if I can’t do the basic human things.
Turns out who was left was me, my soul, I was still here! Beneath all of that, inside I still felt exactly as the same girl that I always was. And I realized, nothing can make me lose who I am inside. My soul is always intact and present. I am still me. Always.
My soul was remembered and freed through massive pain and loss. It released the idea that I need things or situations to be myself.
Unconditionally myself
Being myself is unconditional. I need no conditions to be myself. My wholeness is a given. Nothing can take away my wholeness or my worth. Not losing dreams, not losing even the ability to walk or talk. When I knew that, I was unleashed to play, to enjoy life and relax more and more into who I am. Ultimately it doesn’t matter what the outside looks like. And weirdly when I didn’t mind what it looked like, it started looking very very beautiful.
(One of the keys in life, nonattachment, when you don’t need it, it will come to you and you can enjoy it while it is here.)
Crazy bright light
I came to discover this place inside me that was untouchable. While in “hurricane” circumstances I went through a spiritual bootcamp, the school of life, and I found that there is an unloseable part of me. My soul. Beyond the conditions of life there is the unconditional you, who is always there. That to me is crazy bright light. It’s not the light of something happening. It’s your light that is always on, no matter what is happening.
I was desperate to feel better, whatever it took. I started to practice (and battle tested) acceptance, surrender, loving kindness, compassion, presence, laughter meditation, gratitude, release and forgiveness, during this time. I tried everything just to feel some relief. And it started to pay off, even though I was under physical and mental stress, more and more I found unconditional being. Which meant I felt peaceful, joyful, grateful and compassionate towards myself, the now and life.
I became a soulshine person.
Know your innate wholeness. You are worthy and lovable.
Play. Live. Create. Enjoy. Laugh. Be. Relax.
This is what I most want you to know: your innate wholeness. What if you know and feel that you are already whole, that you are good enough? You know that you are lovable and loved. How would you live your life differently? What would you play, enjoy, create? How would you feel? You could live your wildest dreams. And just be freely you. Isn’t that the wildest dream of all?
If this is for you, join me on the journey of being true. Check out the blog for inspirational stories, tried and battle-tested tools, feelgood faves and more soulshine fun.
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Stay tuned for more upcoming exciting resources. During all that I was learning, I kept thinking, I wish I was taught this when I was 15. So keep an eye out for that dream coming true: The Soulshine academy. An encouraging fun virtual school for the growing up and growing. One of the fun things to come!
Let's be brave. Let our souls shine its crazy bright light. Shine on!
With unconditional love 💖,
An-na